Starting today, I am going to hold myself accountable to write for at least 10 minutes a day each morning. The actual time may vary depending on the day, but for the next 30 days this is my goal. I’m doing this for many reasons and I would get off track if I explained them all now. Generally speaking, I feel like it’s important to allow time in the day for self reflection; to just stop and detach from all the things you need to do to focus on whats going on inside.
So what is going on this morning?
I feel content. I woke up, did some meditation, ate some overnight oats ( YUM ) and here I am. The past few days i’ve kind of living in the future and the past, to say the least. I have been thinking a lot about my move to Hawaii. I’m getting so excited, but also so nervous. I’ve never done anything like this before. I’ve been getting carried away in what my life is going to look like when i’m there, what i’m going to do after, and what I need to do in order to plan for my trip. Realistically, I know that life unfolds naturally and not according to my plan. I’m actively trying to focus on the present and stay grounded during my last month here, but it’s been difficult. It’s like theres an anxious buzzing surrounding my body that has put my senses on high alert. This is why meditation is so important to me and I would be lost without it.I’ve really been making it a point to meditate every morning and night. I’m such a planner that if I didn’t intentionally sit myself down to calm my mind, I would always be one step ahead of myself. Speaking of being one step ahead – back to what’s going on right now… Me and a really good friend recently had a falling out, and that has been in the back of my mind. I keep going over what I could have done differently. These thoughts have been intruding in my mind for a while now but I’m just reminding myself that I can’t control the actions of others – I can only control my response to their actions. That’s always the hardest part – letting go of control.
Anyway, my intention for the day is to allow. Allow whatever comes my way to exist without me trying to control or change it. Allow others to feel what they are feeling and in doing this, also allow myself to feel what I am feeling. I will allow myself to do what I would like today without the silent judgement of my ego getting in the way, reminding myself that living that I am exactly where I need to be.
I am open to what the universe has in store for me today and I give myself permission to send my own positive energy into this world.