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Who am I?

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Who am I?

 

This is something i’ve been asking myself a lot recently. I’d like to say I have a good idea of who I am. I know what I like. I know my hobbies, my habits, the things that make me unique. But still sometimes, I can’t help but think; If I take away all that, Who is left? The question is so profound and complex that sometimes I can’t think about it for too long. It’s one of those ideas you can’t fully wrap your head around, like “How big is infinity?” There is no concrete answer. However, isn’t this the big question of life? The secret to it all? It will come to me at the most random times. Walking, driving, eating. This sense that there is more to my being than what can be accessed from the physical dimension.

The crazy thing is that the more you label yourself, the farther away from yourself you become. This is because anything you can think of that defines you; your body, your mind, your possessions, even your personality, are not you. You HAVE these things, but the real you is so much more. You are consciousness. There is one inner space and when we strip away everything that makes us unique, all thats left is that space. It’s sad that not many people actually take the time to actually get to know themselves fully and get in touch with what lies within. Letting go of fabricated ideas of yourself is scary because it means that you are diving into unknown territory. When you live a life of self-inquiry, you are faced to come to terms with the ghosts of your past and the parts of you that you deem unlovable: shame, guilt, loneliness, vanity, greed, the list goes on. Instead of facing these parts of ourselves, we tend to distract ourselves by obsessing about things.

Can you remember a time when you were a child that you had absolutely no constructed self image? I often think about when I was a little girl and I woke up each morning without a care in the world. I felt joy simply because I was alive.  This is our natural state.

“We start our lives so perfectly whole, then we slowly drift from that place and spend our entire lives trying to franticly find that place again, when it was here all along.”

That space will never leave you. You can access it right now. One. Breath. At. A. Time.

You are not your body, your possessions, or your success. The real you is so much more. You are limitless. Life is too short to forget that!